My profile views number is still stuck at 1,600. I was thinking about it and I think it's been that way longer than just a couple of months. I think it's been stuck there since at least the beginning of the year. I do care a little bit about whether or not it goes up. I would be lying if I said I didn't. I get a slight little kind of childish thrill out of knowing people want to know more about me. It bugs me that it's not moving and I don't know why. My stat counter still says that people are viewing it. Yet the number does not go up. Why? I HATE not knowing the answer to a problem. What is the technical glitch that's going on? Yes, I am letting this stupid problem cause stress. I need to stop.
I feel like a schmuck because I missed a Stake leadership training meeting last week. I never miss them. I do have an excuse. We were having dinner with my family while my brother was here. He was supposed to get here 3 days earlier than he did. Consequently, everything that was supposed to happen on the weekend, got pushed into the week. I also didn't remember to put the meeting in my Outlook calendar. So, I didn't get any of the pop up reminders when I would check my email. Blah, blah, blah. I hate excuses and I hate missing important meetings. Plus, NO ONE from my ward went. No one. That really adds to my feeling of schmuckness. To top it off, members of the Stake Primary Presidency visited my ward on Sunday and I wasn't there. (They weren't visiting to chastise us for missing the meeting. It was something they planned to do months ago. It was just a happy coincidence it fell on the Sunday following the meeting.) We very rarely, and I do mean very rarely, miss attending our ward. I feel it's extremely important when you are in a leadership position (quite frankly any calling requiring you to be there on Sunday) to be there. Like I said, I hate excuses. We missed because we were attending the blessing of Ryan's brothers baby. Things that involve immediate family are the only reasons we will skip out on our own ward. Technically, we didn't skip entirely either. We went to our Sacrament Meeting first and then missed the rest of the block. The part where the Stake Primary Presidency visited and I wasn't there.
I called the Stake Primary President last night to apologize. She was understanding and told me it was fine, but I still feel silly. I know how it feels to be the one running the show and have people flake out on you. It doesn't feel good.
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YOu apologize and you move on. I feel like sometimes, church callings come in the way of actually being with our family, which is actually what we strive for. Don't feel guilty. You are usually very on top of it.
And that glitch is bugging me too.
Kristina, I wouldn't feel so bad if even ONE person from my Primary had attended. My ward was a total no show. That's what really ticks me off.
I can understand your frustration over no one from your ward showing up. You had a good reason for not being there both times. Family. Family comes first. As for the other people in your ward not showing up they have to deal with that on their conscience. I do understand that feeling of frustration though.
I hope the baby blessing was wonderful.
I must revise my statement a little. I have remembered that I did miss this meeting one other time. It was around a year and a half ago and it was due to a family commitment as well. That time, members of my presidency did attend. Consequently, I wasn't racked with guilt/frustration over missing.
Guilt is unpleasant. I think you were doing the most important things by being with your family, no need to feel badly because others didn't do as they should. I am not looking at my profile number on purpose, I don't want to know if it is broken.
I missed the meeting too. It was the fisrt one in 3 years that I have missed. I felt guilty at first but I was really sick with a bladder infection and since Sandy and Jean went--I didn't feel quite as bad--but I still felt bad.
I think that it is just in our nature. We want to do our callings to the best of our ablility and we feel guilty if we miss something. I am the same. The only reason we missed church on Sunday was because my brother blessed his baby and their church is the same time as ours.
Stop beating yourself up (wow--I chould take my own advise huh!?)!
Isn't it Catholics who hold the monopoly on guilt???? Come on! haha I was talking about that with a friend the other day, and this just reminded me of that conversation....
It's okay. There are always circumstances that need to be attended to. I think people understand that.
Yes, family comes first! But at the same time I totally understand the guilt.
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