My profile views number is still stuck at 1,600. I was thinking about it and I think it's been that way longer than just a couple of months. I think it's been stuck there since at least the beginning of the year. I do care a little bit about whether or not it goes up. I would be lying if I said I didn't. I get a slight little kind of childish thrill out of knowing people want to know more about me. It bugs me that it's not moving and I don't know why. My stat counter still says that people are viewing it. Yet the number does not go up. Why? I HATE not knowing the answer to a problem. What is the technical glitch that's going on? Yes, I am letting this stupid problem cause stress. I need to stop.
I feel like a schmuck because I missed a Stake leadership training meeting last week. I never miss them. I do have an excuse. We were having dinner with my family while my brother was here. He was supposed to get here 3 days earlier than he did. Consequently, everything that was supposed to happen on the weekend, got pushed into the week. I also didn't remember to put the meeting in my Outlook calendar. So, I didn't get any of the pop up reminders when I would check my email. Blah, blah, blah. I hate excuses and I hate missing important meetings. Plus, NO ONE from my ward went. No one. That really adds to my feeling of schmuckness. To top it off, members of the Stake Primary Presidency visited my ward on Sunday and I wasn't there. (They weren't visiting to chastise us for missing the meeting. It was something they planned to do months ago. It was just a happy coincidence it fell on the Sunday following the meeting.) We very rarely, and I do mean very rarely, miss attending our ward. I feel it's extremely important when you are in a leadership position (quite frankly any calling requiring you to be there on Sunday) to be there. Like I said, I hate excuses. We missed because we were attending the blessing of Ryan's brothers baby. Things that involve immediate family are the only reasons we will skip out on our own ward. Technically, we didn't skip entirely either. We went to our Sacrament Meeting first and then missed the rest of the block. The part where the Stake Primary Presidency visited and I wasn't there.
I called the Stake Primary President last night to apologize. She was understanding and told me it was fine, but I still feel silly. I know how it feels to be the one running the show and have people flake out on you. It doesn't feel good.